Autumn holds different meanings for different people. It can mean the end of a cycle or the beginning of a cycle depending on the nature of the being and the climate it exists in. It means waking to cooler mornings, with the hope of being able to enjoy warmer afternoons. It means seeing the bright colors of changing leaves, and hearing them rustle under foot as you shuffle through raked piles. If you have school age children, back-to-school time could mean a change in routine from the go-with-the-flow, laid back attitudes of summer.
For some it can feel like the end of a cycle. In the spring, you are in a position of preparation. Like a farmer who spends daylight hours seeding his fields for the coming season. Like the carpenter who begins to spend more time in the outdoors, building decks and fences. Like the proud homeowner, wanting to have that golf green lawn, the preparation would begin in the spring. Even wildlife, that have spent the winter in a warmer climate, venture home in spring. Spring is a busy time, leading to a summer of adventure. Summer, is the time for family barbecue’s, taking advantage of and making use of that new deck. Enjoying the lush, soft, and very green grass you have worked so hard to keep weed free. It’s summer camps for kids and weekend trips out of the city for adults. It’s planning every moment , in order to take advantage of the time of year that seems to creep up on us so fast and fade away just as quickly. That’s where Autumn comes in. It’s a breath of fresh air. It brings us back to a place of schedule and routine. It allows us family weekends at home. It allows us spontaneous outings on those days that are extraordinarily warm and pleasant. It allows us to rest, regroup and prepare for what’s to come.
Many people that live in a climate of four seasons, dread the coming of winter. How can this be? It’s the longest of our seasons. Does that mean you really dread waking each morning for a large portion of a year? Do you wish the cold away, counting down the days until warmer weather returns? If you are trudging through winter with an attitude of waiting, doesn’t that make winter even longer? And if waiting is what you are doing, what are you missing while you wait? What do you not take advantage of during those cold months? What is there that you could be enjoying? Do you take the time to walk outdoors in the sunlight after a snowfall to see the snow twinkle as if lit by tiny lights? Do you walk outdoors when it’s so cold it almost hurts to breath, and listen to the sound of the snow crunching under foot? Do you take advantage of bright sunny days and go outside to feel the sun on your face? Have you thought of taking up a winter hobby? Find a way to enjoy this season, as much as you enjoy the others. When you do this, it’ll be over before you know it, and you have enjoyed life at the same time.
This is not what I had planned on writing about today. I wanted to explain my horrible mood. Probably more like complain about it. I was wanting to explain that even when we know we are in a horrible mood, it doesn’t make it any easier to remain positive. I wanted to say that it’s hard to push away thoughts of giving up. I wanted to say that it is SO frustrating to work so hard and feel like I have to start over again. I wanted to say I’m not not starting over again, I quit! But, isn’t giving up really like waiting for winter to be over? Would I not be wasting days that could be wonderful days in the making? You don’t hide yourself away for the winter, waiting for it to go away? You shouldn’t hide yourself away when a mood has gotten the better of you. Don’t let it win. Don’t let it be a day to hide from. Find a way to make it positive or at the very least bearable. If not as positive as a summer day, how about just more enjoyable than a day spent hiding away.
This is what I’ve decided. If my mind wants to be in a mood, that’s fine. It can go right ahead. I’m going to do everything physically in my power to ensure it doesn’t have an easy time of that. I’ve come this far. One day is not a set back. It’s a challenge! Sorry mood, you don’t get to win today!